Week 12:
“We’ve come a long way from where we began”

August 4, 2019

Week 12! So bitter Sweet.

Woaah.. I have 3 1/2 weeks left before I’m back at Cornell to start off my sophomore year of college. Time really does fly when you’re having fun. This experience has been way more than I ever could have imagined. I’ve learned so much more about myself than I have in my 19 years of living. Honestly. I know that the journey to find who I am, what I believe in, what I love, and what I am passionate about is going to be never ending, but I definitely have a firmer grasp on more of it than I used to; I am so happy, and so much more confident because of that.

This week things have been slow on my end being that more shows in the theatre have been opening, that I am not involved in. We’ve only had 3 Little Shop performances. I have been recently cast in another show called, North Star, here at Creede and I’m super excited for it. That will be a different experience because with this show, I will only have one day of blocking, one day of tech, and one day to perform it which means, I have to know all of my lines very soon. The show goes up late August.

We did have a Christmas in July party that was lots of fun. We did Secret Santa gift exchanges, danced a bit, and ate some great cookies. It was so funny because everyone in my pod (my housing) basically had each other, and we have no idea how it happened, or how we managed to keep the secret from each other. My secret Santa was our Artistic Director’s 7 year old daughter Penny, who I had just gotten to babysit. She’s so cute and insanely intelligent.

Speaking of babysitting, because things have slowed down in the theater on my end, I’ve gotten tons of babysitting side jobs given to me by people in the acting company who have kids. I love babysitting because it allows me time that I used to spend with my tiny siblings and just sends me the loving memories that I had with them. It’s also like an outlet for me when my life seems to be getting tough, I can grab a cute little baby and their innocence and purity wipe away the dirt on my heart.

Being one of the youngest in the company and the absolute youngest in the acting company can be a little hard at times, because although everyone is amazing, and kind, it’s hard to not feel lonely. Of course, you can’t partake in everything that the older people are doing, because you may not be old enough. It can make you feel left out when you’re not on the level that everyone else is on. It’s easy to forget that people still care about you when you begin to feel lonely and isolated which is something I was beginning to struggle with this week. However, my chin is still up and I’m reminded that this experience is something that I may never have again, so I have to stay positive, stay motivated, and make the best of everything that I can.